Deep Sea Baby

關於情緒這種事，女生不需要男生的幫助，陪伴和傾聽就是最大的幫助。

我想說一個所有動物都可能會經歷的故事。

我不是你們想的那樣，也不是我以為的那個樣子。

我想我被控制了，是甜蜜的負擔，它在我夢裏哭，它在我夢裏笑。

我想，我在試著彌補小心魔。

我朋友說人的另一面就是inner child，它會跟著人長大，到了老的時候精神衰弱會反過來控制你。

不過我知道，我的小心魔會一直很愛我，就像我也愛我的小心魔，至少它讓我的夢變的有趣，說不定我們會處的很好。

Most of the time I wrote in Chinese, but sometimes I prefer write in English. I do not know how I defined them and which language to use. Due to this, somehow my mind separated into two parts or two worlds; one is not bad and the other is homesick.  I am writing in English without refined words, just something I want to spit it out.

Actually, I do not want to be as brave as my classmates think: how brave I am to be here by myself, how brave I studied abroad far from my hometown, etc.; probably I just get a weak connection to other, to my friends and my family.

I know that kind of feeling, comparing to those anxious emotion based on far from home, I am more scared of the emotion makes me nervous when I know I will go back in the future. I am not ready, I know, not ready to say goodbye to you, not ready to end up the story, although it was ended by your texts. I am not sure I can do this, face to you, say hi to you, as if we have been known each other for a long time. I should stay back and keep this out there temporarily. It is better for me.

This is what we said: Jin Hsiang Ching Gung Cheuh (近鄉情更怯), which means getting closer to the hometown, you will be more timid. I want to see you but, on the contrary, I do not. So annoying. I also afraid that you will forget me if you meet a new person and have new memories and go to the new place, then forget about me, forever.

Winter is getting closer and your appearance is fading out. I told you I am more compassionate than before, I think it is because this time, I took this relationship so serious that I almost believed that we can take care of each other - for always.

【猫かぶり】就是【甲仙】的意思

“Neko-kaburi” means feigned innocence, hypocrite, pretender or phoney.

This song is from Uncle Cozy Band's debut album "Musul"