Deep Sea Baby

關於情緒這種事，女生不需要男生的幫助，陪伴和傾聽就是最大的幫助。

我想說一個所有動物都可能會經歷的故事。

妳知道嗎，他其實不自覺的瞧不起妳或是覺得妳傻，他覺得妳不能也沒辦法拒絕他所有的要求，他把妳當成寵物一樣的豢養。

他心裏有個標準，他得不到但是很希望妳能擁有的標準，於是他先得到妳，接著養著妳，等著妳漸漸歸順。

漸漸的妳發現他好像不是真的愛護妳，他不跟妳做有效的溝通，只是哄著妳，妳不確定，不過妳會讓著他，因為他的懷抱很溫暖，他的懷抱就是妳的全部。

他耐心的等著妳朝著他的範本前進，同時也覺得這是為妳想。妳開始學新把戲，很開心也很期待以後的自己，雖然他的範本很多。

後來妳開始發現妳失去自己，不知道是怎麼樣又是什麼時候失去的，妳很困惑，困惑自己為什麼喜歡又不喜歡學新把戲，然後妳沒來由的悶悶不樂。

本來養的好好的，突然不吃東西不開心了，他就想著帶妳去看醫生，不過他依然如從前，哄著妳，無效溝通。

後來他開始覺得有點不耐煩，因為他不知道怎麼幫助妳才可以讓妳快點像以前一樣開心，妳也不知道該怎麼辦，因為妳依舊太渴望他的懷抱，不過他聽不懂，也看不出妳的孤獨和困惑，還有其他可能連妳也不知道的情緒，然後他說是妳想要學新把戲的。

後來妳好像有點頭緒，但捉不到也摸不著， 他開始說妳學不會新把戲了，也不讓他哄，還想要跟他坐同一張椅子了，妳只不過是隻被圈養的寵物。

此時妳發現妳真的失去自己了，失去的很徹底，然後妳很茫然，他也很困惑，不懂妳怎麼失去控制了，他必須找個新的。

而妳，親愛的，妳被留在原地，但妳必須繼續留在原地，這樣才能找回自己，這是妳唯一能夠保留著，同時也是獨一無二，妳最擅長的舊把戲。

接著，妳並不覺得妳適合這樣的懷抱，妳依然期待被豢養，畢竟某方面來說那表示妳有個只屬於妳的溫暖懷抱，但不是這種。

妳懂了嗎親愛的，就是這樣一次次的被留下，妳才能一點一點描繪愛情的模樣，妳才會離妳想要的越來越近。

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About EMOTION, girl doesn't need any help, it will be the biggest help if boy could just listen and stay with girl.

I'd like to tell a story that all of us might experience.

You know what? In fact, he unconsciously looked down on you or thought that you are silly and he felt like that you cannot deny all his request, he kept you as his pet.

He has a standard on his mind, a standard that he cannot get it but he really wish that you can achieve the standard.

Thus he got you, and he kept you, waiting for your allegiance.

Gradually you found that  he doesn't really love you or precisely, cherish you, like what you expected.

He was not communicating effectively. You thought he coaxed you, fooled you around, but you could not make sure so you still yielded to him since he got you in his arms, and his embrace was so warm which meant everything to you.

He waited patiently as you move forward to his model, at the same time he thought this was for your sake.

You started to learn new thing, you were happy and expecting your future, although he got a lot of models.

Then you found that you started losing yourself, you didn't know how and when you lose yourself, you confused, confused by why you love and don't love to learn the new thing.

Then you felt moody and depressed.

He wanted to take you to doctor, he thought he keep you well, how come you depressed?

However he still coaxed you, communicated ineffectively.

He started to lose his patience because he didn't know how to help you to be happy, like you used to be.

You had no idea either, you desired his embrace but he couldn't understand your loneliness and confusion, and those other emotion that even you, would never find out.

Then he said it was you who want to learn the new trick.

Then you felt like you got something, those emotions, still not reachable though, but you really got something.

He thought that you didn't learn new things, you didn't let him fool, and you even want to sit next to him, you were just a captive pet.

At this moment you realized that you totally lose yourself, and you dazed, he confused.

He confused why you were out of control, so he had to find a new one.

And you, my dear, you were left here, and you have to stay here, to find yourself.

This is the only old thing you can keep, which is unique and the best you've done, 'yourself'.

Finally you know that you are not suitable for this kind of hug.

You still expect being fed, after all, in a sense it means that you have a warm embrace which only belongs to you, but not this one.

Did you get the picture, my dearest?

This is the way you get closer and closer to what you want.

This is how you were left again and again, and you will capable to depict LOVE.